Friday 17 February 2012

With him.....the day I wore my best dress...

The day I wore my best dress....Ah!I remember it ...all those heart felt moments.Such great memories which when remembered revive the essence of my life!!
My story is a tragedy of epic proportions.Whenever I remember those sweet and easy going days I feel nostalgic.
I,Cecily Thomas was an ordinary girl.My approach to life was always naive.As I was the only child of my parents I had always tried to be best in every phase of my life.For this reason I was determined,ambitious and focused from the very start.As a child,I strived to be the kindest,the most clever and the most able.(cleverness which I don't have uptil now...!)
I had fine features.I was never beautiful...though not ugly.I had some strange sort of brightness on my face and gleaming eyes which carried many hopes and dreams,as told by my elders.The way they described my eyes made me believe today that yes,there was something special in them.I was a strong girl and I still am.My lifestyle was quite organised and systematic.Whatever I wore was simple but admirable.I never put on make up until my wedding day........without exaggerating any more I would continue with my story.
After so many years had pass,my wedding day approached.That was the day when I wore my best dress.My life became frenzy.The routine was quite busy and I buzzed through a whirl of appointments.I hated all this..hated this literally from the very start!Getting up early in the morning and going late to the bed...I was exhausted!I wanted a break but that was not possible!
Well,while mentioning all these hectic routines of  that phase of my life I forgot to tell you the most important thing.About my prince charming!Introducing you to Mark Stanley,the prince of my dreams.
I met Stanley when I was studying in Harvard University.He was wonderfully,madly brilliant as far as his studies were concerned.I quite simply liked the way he presented his views and ideas and the way he dealt through things.He was an avid reader cause I was the library incharge  and I always found him reading there.
          After some days he was not coming to the university,it was a bit shocking as he was a regular student.He was vanished.Nobody knew his reason for being absent.After a week,he was back.Everyone was asking him that where he was.Then I came to know that his mother has passed away.
     I was passing from the corridor when I saw him sitting on the staircase alone.He was looking completely broken.I felt sad for him.I went near him and quietly sat beside him.I tried to console him and pitied him as I was feeling sorry for him.First, he looked at me and then bent down his head.He did not speak a word.I told him that sometimes life takes a turn and things do happen out of the blue.I patted on his shoulder and stood up.I moved a step further when  his hands caught mine in a tight grip.I turn around and was a bit shaken by this action of his.I became a bit scared.He gently pulled my hand and made me sit beside him again and shared his grievances.Now,not getting into much details.....from this day we became good friends and blindly trusted each other.
          One day Stanley called me and asked if I would like to go out with him.I wanted to but I considered it better if I asked my mom first.So,I requested Stanley to wait for my answer.Unexpectedly,she easily allowed me after a rapid-fire round of questions.Then I informed Stanley that it would be my pleasure to go with him.
      We met in the garden outside Stanley's house.The weather was awesome.It was a bright but frosty morning.I walked with Stanley with my arms folded as it was chilly.There was a strange silence which persisted between us.Then Stanley broke the silence."So...what's up?" asked Stanley not knowing from where to start."Nothing special."Again silence."Cecily,don't you think we should sit now?"
"Ya, sure.Why not...."We sat on the bench."Don't you want to know my purpose behind calling you here?"inquired Stanley."Purpose?What do you mean by purpose?"I replied in confusion."The weather is so nice today and I think it is the most suitable time to tell you something..." "What something?"I interrupted,dying out of curiosity.
"I want to tell you that....that  I love you and I want to marry you......"expressed Stanley,taking a deep sigh.
I was numb for the moment not knowing what to say and I did not get what he meant because how can he be in love with a girl like me! I asked him,"Are you serious?" "Serious....!I am damn serious!come on!Do you think I'm joking?" "No you aren't joking,I think as if I'm dreaming.This is so unbelievable!"I blurted.I nearly ate half of my words!
"It isn't unbelievable!Any guy can fell in love with you..." "How?I mean to say that I'm not so beautiful and I'm not so expressive...." "You're attractive and the best part is that you are kind ,simple and honest...and all this make you perfect!You know what?"
"W-what?"I asked bashfully."You would have seen me in the library,haven't you?"asked Stanley,with a strange smile on his face."Yes I have seen you with those huge pile of books on you table cause I am the library incharge." "Do you want to know what I used to do?"
"Obviously,you read the books and please if you don't mind would you stop these kinda stupid questions!"I said getting irritated."No,I didn't used to read books.I stared you all time long with my face hiding with the book.The books helped me a lot!"replied Stanley and laughed.I stayed quiet because I had never thought that a boy like him could have done that.
     After revealing all this he bent down on his knees and plucked a rose from the closest rose plant and proposed me.He held my hand.I stood up from the bench.I was blushing.I didn't uttered a word and dropped my gaze.A broad smile adored my face.I stayed there a few more minutes.Then I tried to free my hand from that gentle but firm grip.Stanley loosened the grip and I somehow managed to run away.I did not accept that rose but Stanley got his answer by my constant blushing and smiling,so he excused me.That day I was very happy and I wasn't able to sleep the whole night.
     Our families met and decided the wedding date and now we were to be married.I was pretty much excited about my wedding.And now finally my wedding dress.It was ivory satin silk gown having frilled puff sleeves.I simply loved it as firstly,it was my wedding dress,secondly,my mum designed it and last but not the least,it looked glamorous!So,I had special sort of  strong emotional bonding with this dress.
         On my wedding day I was looking stunningly beautiful in my ivory gown.My golden hair were tied in a tight bun at the back with a puff in the front and some random layers of my hair were permed and were hanging loosely.This hairstyle best suited my oval-shaped face and grayish blue eyes.I wore pearl and sapphire necklace which Stanley gifted me.My net veil was arranged.All this gave an overall elegant look.I was satisfied because I always remained simple,I wanted to look entirely different on my wedding day.My mum said that I was looking absolutely fantastic.
     After all the wedding rituals were completed,Stanley and I went to the room-our room.The room was decorated with earthen lamps and rose flower.The room bursted with sweet fragrance of flower.No lights were on but the light of the earthen lamps was sufficient.I was quite amazed by the decoration.But this decoration caused me a lot of trouble.When a no.of  dazzling colours were to enter my life,only black colour appeared prominent!
        My dress caught fire...It all burned quickly.The fire seemed a snake rolling around me.I got burned a bit but Stanley hurried to the wash room and emptied the whole bucket of water on me.I shouted and screamed but all my shouts and screams disappeared in the intensity of the flames.The family members rushed to the room.They took me to the hospital.The doctors told that I was 23% burned.I was unconscious at that time.After a skin graft,I became better.Only my hands and some parts of my stomach were burned.Two minor skin grafts were to be conducted....Every day my bandage was to be changed.It was really painful.I felt as if heat evaporated from every pore of my body!But still I was calm and endured the pain.The unconventional love of Stanley and the support of the whole family gave me strength to fight it out.That day I came to know that yes I was a strong woman!The doctors said that I had recovered earlier than it was expected to.Readers,you can imagine that what would have been more painful than getting burnt on your wedding day when you would have wore your best dress...
       I remember Stanley's inspirational words which I would like to quote here."You are not defeated until you accept your defeat.Winners are not those who never fail ,but those who never quit!"
       So,I was a winner as I progressed rapidly and proved myself.This was my story of my best dress.What about you?

Friday 23 December 2011

Memories

A day before,at home time,I was sitting in the van with my legs propped on the back of the front seat.Peeping outside the window I found a group of friends giggling and enjoying together on the footpath.It seemed as if they were in some other world...they had no idea of what was happening around them.They were indulged in teasing each other and their faces had strange sparks and gleams...A smile adored my my face but the very next moment I was sad.Now the question which arises up over here is that what's the point of being sad on this???The thought that my school life is going to be finished made me sad...one day will come when I would be sitting,cherishing all those moments which I have spent with my friends.
Fighting for a sip of cold drink,crying a river for one little misunderstanding,so many hands for wiping these tears,so many teases and leg pullings for just a blunder,dancing all round for a piece of happiness,so many eyes dreaming those big dreams...no tension at all...Ah!all this will finish but I would be having such great memories!
Today friends I want to thank you people for being a part of the picture of my life and making the picture of my life so colorful by adding the different colours of your personalities in it!I don't know whether I would be there with you or not so I want to express my gratitude to all of you!LOVE YOU FRIENDS!!!
May your souls be guided towards what is right and may all your dreams come true...(Ameen) 

Friday 9 September 2011

joyous moments........

Excitement filled my nerves,I was thrilled about spending te eid.It was chand raat and everyone was busy preparing for the eid.From ironing the clothes till washing things,everyone was busy.I was sitting in the drawing room thinking about eid.I had completed all the tasks which were assigned to me.Then I started designing my hands with Mehendi(henna).Decorative designs filled my mind and I portrayed them on my hand.Happiness surrounded me and my limitless imagination continued thinking about eid.I was excited for the eidi as well............I was dreaming all this and then I found that my hand was completed.After that the whole night I dreamed of the eid.I woke up at 7:00am in the morning.Everyone was in a hustle bustle because it was time for the eid prayers.Then I helped mum in house chores.I was  too exhausted after that but my spirits were high.I could smell the aroma of sheer khorma and luscious sweets,water filled my mouth.After the male members returned,we all had breakfast.Then at 12:00pm I went to sleep the last night.Then I woke up at 3:00pm and went to offer my prayers cause I was already late.I took a bath and attired myself in my eid dress and wore all the matching bangles and jewellery.I looked myself in the mirror  and was satisfied that I was looking perfect.My dada gave me eidi and I wished him Eid mubarak.
At night it was a grand celebration.Joy flowed in my bloodstream........the whole day passed with joy,happiness and peace..........
May ALLAH bless us more!!!!!!!!!!

Monday 5 September 2011

Defining myself...

Sometimes the world seems like a deep sea,dark and intense.The density of it seems so much that there is no way out.My each and every attempt fails and I'm unable to see myself out of it.It feels as if I'm in a huge trap and I cannot escape.All my screams and shouts disappear in the compression of the waves.Silence...........ah silence,that is what I'm afraid of.By silence I mean the silence of people..................It may sound weird  that I'm afraid of the silence of people because some people are afraid of insects,some are afraid of ghosts,some are afraid of darkness,etc,but I'm afraid of silence,only silence.
depicting the same image that is in my mind!!!
        There are many closed ones,who mean a WORLD to me,without whom I can SURVIVE but I can't LIVE!!!!!But it hurts a lot when they can't understand how much they value in my life.May be feelings,emotions,expressions,relations,demands are not as important for them as it is for me.Or may be they are not that expressive or it can be that they don't want to...............
Perhaps it is that I'm very sensitive and obsessed about all these things,or may be I'm more expressive that is why I feel it..............but what matters is that I FEEL IT.................

Thursday 25 August 2011

Straight from the heart.............

23rd August,2011
          It was night time.................I was quite frustrated because there was no light...........
The night passed somehow without light!!!!!It was my result next morning but I couldn't go to the school because my clothes weren't pressed.Well........I was very nervous,a sense of chilling circulated in my blood,I was thinking that what will I obtain in my board results!!!!!!Then I was curious as well,because I wasn't  able  to collect my result from the school........And all my friends knew what they got in their board exams.They got an A,some got A* n some got below this,but the overall result was good!!!!!!
I was very restless from then onwards that what will I get??????
The next morning that was 25thAugust,I checked my result online..........I obtained an A in P.studies and urdu but very unexpected C in Islamiat........:(
I was happy for my p.studies grade as my paper didn't went so good and I got an A in it but I was disappointed for my islamiat grade as I was expecting an A in it...........Moreover,I was among the students who used to get highest scores in Islamiat in the whole class,so I was very sad about it........
But sometimes what we think doesn't happen............
You would have heard,
"lower expectations,higher achievement n higher expectations,lower achievement"
So,it was this way!!!!!!!

Saturday 20 August 2011

Everytime it rains...........

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of your presence around me.....

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of the time I've spent with you.......

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of your pure heart.......

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of the graceful smile that adored your face......

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of the rose you gave me......

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of the way,you teased me........

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of that gentle hand that touched me........

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of your firm hold when I slipped in the rain.......

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of the speaking silence that surrounded us.......

Everytime it rains,
it reminds me of your presence around me........


Wednesday 20 July 2011

Sometimes it feels................

Sometimes it feels as if I'm drowning.............
Then I see a hand lifting,
coming towards me,
trying to console me........
I find that ,I know that hand
That hand is somebody I beheld.
A gleam in the dark,
highest of all marks.
That hand is my biggest stand.
I take that hand
and hold it tight,
and it takes me from darkness to light.
By seeing this I'm so surprised
that I'm quite lucky to have someone in my life.........
who's so nice..........!!!!
(I wrote this poem is for someone special................who played an IMPORTANT role in my life & is still playing........AN INSPIRATION 4 ME!!!!!!!)